Why bother? Seriously. Could someone PLEASE explain...

[HopeForHumanity]

I would like everyone to know that Anarchist's arn't bad people, they just prefer less civilization. And that no matter what we say or think, people have true sides they cant get rid of. At interest, I am a Libertarian, but in reality, I am an Anarchist my self. Probably around 95% of people on this planet are Anarchist in reality. You may deny it, but by action, we all hate organization. Most people however, never catch themselves in the act of supporting Anarchism. And because people are programmed to have a generaly negative outlook on Anarchism, they deny it. Don't hate yourself for Anarchist actions, without them we wouldn't be human. And don't forget that most fights for freedom were fueled by Anarchism itself.

[xenobard]

Hopeforhumanity

I am not insulted that you called me an anarchist as opposed to a libertarian.  I am insulted that you called me anything at all; insulted that you labeled me and thus diminished me.  Why do you diminish yourself by calling yourself a libertarian or an anarchist?

I realize it is a choice: join humanity and further it; or extricate oneself from humanity watch it rise or watch it fall, whichever may be the case.

I can't seem to choose...

There is much I could 'accomplish', whatever it is that 'accomplish' might mean in this blink of a moment we call human civilization.  I could help in great ways.  But I would not do so for money, nor fame, nor out of any sense of duty or anything like that.  Nor would I do it simply because I can.  I suppose I will accomplish things to amaze people.  I seem to enjoy amazing people.  It makes me laugh.

Anyway.  Can I have the last word in my own thread and can we let this dead horse lie quietly finally? 

[DrWhat]

OK!

[bitRAKE]

If you are a psych major and are really just trying to help, can you please just diagnose my bifurcated identity: one part wanting to join humanity and save it, and the other part wishing to extricate itself from humanity and happily sit back and watch it destroy itself.  This is my problem.  This is what I need to figure out.  This is VERY important to me.

Maybe start here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissociation_%28psychology%29

Or maybe, http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Post-traumatic_stress_disorder

Besides living out of a car at a rest stop in Florida, I was kidnapped and beat by an angry mob (two events). Of course, these things are not isolated or unique - many experience much worse (orphan children in russia).

My thinking is that you should only engage society in ways you find comfortable and time will heal the past (slowly). To force yourself might bring out the negative persona that seeks equalization through retribution. In this regard you appear to be doing well.

Please, don't forget this is the human condition, but it seems people start at different places in the same maze and no one ever makes it out alive.

"And how am I to face the odds, of man's bedevilment and God's, I a stranger and afraid in a world I never made?" ? A.E. Housman (1859-1936)

"The punishment for the wise man who refuses to get involved in politics is to be ruled by lesser men." ? Plato

There are signs of the struggle everywhere.

[rapttor]

Xeno, yes the masses who are asses unfortunately make up 85% of this world, they run around with the blinders on and then join the popular movement of the week, glommer-oners I believe I've heard them called... more like "lemmings" in lots of ways.
This board is merely a bunch of people that for the most part, are looking for alternative, suppressed & hindered devices and machines to live more autonomously and not rely on anyone else to provide for them, which at the same time gaff them mercilously for $$

The other thing I suggest is a good indica or sativa strain son, might lighten your mood up and make you see where some of us are coming from.

-rapttor

see you swimming down in arizona bay....